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Teddy Bears (:
♥Friday, May 28, 2010 } 10:53 PM

well.
i was actually feeling quite happy just now.
but my mum came in and read my report book.
this is the thing i am always damn angry about.
in term 1 i admit that i always sleep in class, then go out in the afternoon and come home late and sleep late. and it was an evil cycle.
that's why i scored super badly.
so i made up my mind to work hard.
then in term 2. i swear i never go out (other than to eat) to enjoy myself.
i was like a no life freak that never stop studying.
and my results now are better.
so it is obvious that i want to enjoy myself after the exams right?
now that is the problem.
my mum is always like 'you go out too many times already'.
and inside me will always be like 'just shut up lah, i deserve to go out and enjoy myself after pinning myself to the books for so long'.
i mean like, i decided to stay with her because she gives me freedom.
but now the 'freedom' is as good as the last time.
so i might as well go back to bedok to stay with my grandma right?
at least i can also play with my baby cousins that can cheer me up even though its like a jail.
its like, i sleep with only a fan in bedok. but with an air-con here- but i'm like freezing everynight which leads to morning sickness now.
another thing is that now, my auntie also comes in and talk to us about our studies.
and i am the kind of person that if someone comes at me about my studies, I'll be damn annoyed.
i don't know why but i am like this.
this is just me.
you see me quiet or just starring at something or looking around means that i am thinking and observing things around me.
I KNOW MY MISTAKES AND I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT IT.
this is me.
i do appreciate that they care.
but to me, they care too much.
THEY ARE ALWAYS TELLING ME THINGS THAT I ALREADY KNOW AND THAT REALLY ANNOYS ME.
AND THAT IS THE PART THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND ABOUT ME.
THEY DON'T KNOW MY FRIENDS.
THEY ALSO DON'T KNOW THAT TO ME, I LOVE MY FRIENDS MORE THAN FAMILY.
AND WHY?
ISN'T IT OBVIOUS?
WHERE AM I ALWAYS SMILING?
AT HOME?
OR WHEN I'M WITH MY FRIENDS?
WHAT IS MY CHARACTER LIKE?
DO MY FAMILY KNOW?
if they tell me things i don't know even though i am embarrassed. I'm GREATFUL.
but if they tell me something that i keep telling myself. i will want to shout and ask them to shut the fuck up.
this is me.
and that is what they don't know.
MY BEHAVIOUR IN SCHOOL/WITH FRIENDS=CRAZY PERSON.
MY BEHAVIOUR AT HOME/WITH FAMILY=NO LIFE/EMO FREAK.
YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN???
THEY STILL THINK I'M A LITTLE KID.
IF ONLY THEY KNEW.
I'LL BLOG ABOUT THE THINGS I'VE DONE TOMORROW.
WHEN I'VE COOLED.

ITS ALL ABOUT ME ♥

THE NAME'S CLARA
ONE YEAR OLDER EVERY 0912
NGEEANNPRIMARYSCHOOL
NGEEANNSECONDARYSCHOOL
BOLD , UNDERLINED , STRIKE


LOVES♥ / DISLIKES

♥loves listening to music.- relaxing.
♥loves to dance.- passion.
♥loves to study.- SOMETIMES.
♥loves to collect keychains and badges.- they're cool.
♥loves to read.- fantasy.
♥loves to watch movies.- to waste time.
♥loves anime.- supernatural.
♥loves swimming.- water.
♥loves cycling.-exercise okay?!
♥loves volleyballing.- fun.
♥loves archery.- shoot.
♥loves bowling.- roll it babe!
♥loves going out with friends.- heart to heart talk/enjoy.
♥loves shopping.- new wardrobe. (:
♥loves parties.- praty time duh!
hates sea.- salty, sickening, sharks, fishes, sucks.
hates durians.- smelly, headache. bad breath.

Desires

Fame.
more friends.
Get into university.
Get a bigger room
going into secondary 3 express
new wallet
take a-maths next year
hand socks.
white skinnies.
BARADES!!!!!.
get A for maths again. maybe A1 this time.
HIM♥
dance going to other countries?
be a better dancer
don't need to go hospital for check ups anymore.
stop killing insects.
improve my mathematics.
play tennis with auntie.
cousins coming back from australia again.june'09, dec'09
dance chalet.
mummy will not tire herself.
daddy will be successful.
get chocolate from those who owe me!!!
do shoulder freeze...!!!